You can’t just get up one day and say I am going to be fit and expect results the next morning. You can’t just eat healthy for a day or two and just stop. No, if you want those results you’ve got to push. Push harder then ever before. Push like your life depends on it. Push with everything you have and then more. You have to keep going. Even when you wake up sore as hell. Even when you feel like you are about to drop. You have to move. Move like lightning. Move like you have all the energy in the world. And keep doing that, not for a week or a month or a year, BUT for the rest of your life. If you can’t make that commitment, then don’t expect any significant results.
For Halloween I went out and did this thing called Halloween for Hunger.
It was with my school and we basically went door to door getting non-perishable items for the hungry. I was walking around for probably about two hours (maybe a little longer) so I thought, well it’s halloween and I’m burning calories, might as well let myself have a treat. So I had 7 squares of a cadbury chocolate bar (it was one of the big ones so it was a third of it) and a mini twix and a mini mars bar and I actually feel sick now. I didn’t even eat much but my stomach isn’t used to eating this way now. I’m proud of my body for wanting good real food now and not wanting to eat massive amounts of sugar and sweets.
My moms been telling people that's I'm on a health "kick"
So yesterday when she said it to family friends I got at little annoyed. I told her that’s it’s not a “kick” at all, it’s a lifestyle and it’s not going anywhere. I don’t see eating healthy as a thing I have to do, it’s just a thing I wanted to do and has now become something I do without even thinking.
I was score keeping all night at my school and didn’t know until about the middle of the day that I would be so I couldn’t pack myself something for dinner. Then they ordered pizza and I was like, oh shit. And then people proceed to leave the whole pizza right in front of me. It was awful but I managed not to eat it.
So far I've lost ten pounds but I feel like I look the same.
I can’t even see a difference in my before and after pictures. My stomach still feels like it sticks out too which I hate. I don’t know I just want to be at my goal so bad, but I know it takes time.. so I’ll be patient and keep at it.
The whole day was nice and then as soon as it ends, BAM, rain pouring down. And then when it finished there were too many puddles. So I couldn’t go, which made me sad. But I went on the stepper today so at least I got some exercise. Tomorrow is the gym… possibly.
It don’t know if I like it yet but I’ll try it out. I like not having to type everything out and that all the calories are right there so I may just use that instead of posting on here. But I like showing you guys what I eat so I stay on track. I honestly don’t know, what do you guys think? Keep posting on here or use the MyFitnessPal. Possibly both..?
The girl you saw at the gym with the the great arms is unhappy about the mush on her butt. And the guy you see with with the great back is frustrated he can’t see his abs. And the girl with the strong legs is unhappy she can’t build her shoulders. And when all these people bend, lay down, or move, their skin squishes, crumples, creases, folds, and jiggles…. just like you. Because we’re all the same and there is no perfect.
What you think is your flaw, others think is beauty. What you think is perfect on someone, they see as their flaw. Stop comparing and stop thinking you’re less-than because of your shape. Work your goals, keep pushing, but don’t just look at what you don’t like about your body, give it some props for the things it’s done right.
Remember that your body is not a calculator, or a machine, and it will not run happily on 753 calories just because you told it to. It will not stop craving cookies just because you decided you weren’t going to eat them. Low calorie diets are very hard. It’s okay to eat something unhealthy sometimes, so do not cut your calories to nothing if you eat something unhealthy. The heart wants what the heart wants, same for the mouth. If you want to eat a cookie, eat one, but give yourself the same amount of nutrients and calories as you would any other day, even if this means you eat a few extra calories that day.
It’s hard. You see kids with bags of chips and soda and candy and sandwiches and that’s only in the morning >.>
= Life. All the time, it’s hard when everyone around me is eating crap and I’m sitting here trying to not. Then I have some of my friends telling me to just eat all this shit food. It’s so much more difficult.
Exercised today! Probably could have done more but hey, I did my best. I did a lot of walking. Ate, what 3 apples? I don’t know why! THEY WERE ALL JUST SO GOOD. I think I’ll treat myself today :)
Breakfast: Oatmeal (130 cal) w/ two tablespoons unsweetened apple sauce (15 cal), cinnamon (10 cal), nutmeg, a little soy milk (20 cal) and an apple (70 cal) = 245 cal
Lunch: Pita (90 cal) and hummus (70 cal), carrot (30 cal), kiwi (50 cal), I think I’m going to buy myself a cookie as a treat too :) (300? cal) = 240 cal + cookie = 540 cal? approx.
Dinner: Fish tacos made with a whole wheat tortilla (90 cal) cod loin w/ a little margarine and seasoning (100 cal), half a tomato (10 cal), some lettuce and a little salsa (10 cal), kiwi on the side (50 cal) = 260 cal
Snacks: Apple (75 cal), a granola bar (100 cal) = 170 cal
Exercise: Walked to and from school (15 mins) I don’t really want to run so I might go on the stepper.