im your average teenage cliche

I need to work on not being so negative about my body. Yes I’ve gained weight but HATING it won’t help me lose it. And every time I come on here I see all these skinny and fit people and it’s triggering. It makes me think about how much I hate my body, it doesn’t give me motivation. For now I’m going to go back to posting on my main blog here. I’ll be back in a couple weeks I think but for now I need to stop coming on here because it only leads me to me being sad. 

It’s not about having…

The best hair
The whitest teeth
The biggest boobs
The cutest clothes
The tightest abs
The hottest date
The nicest car
The highest grades
…or anything that requires a comparison.

What matters is that you become the best version of yourself.
In spirit, in mind, and in body.

I know it’s not ideal and they say to eat every 3 hours but I just ate a big breakfast and I feel more satisfied than I have ever eating smaller meals. 

Most certainly. About ten pounds. I find that I don’t gain weight that easily either so you can imagine how bad my binging can be. I’m working really hard to not be mad at myself for letting myself gain 10 pounds back, but I’m struggling. Each day is new though and I can kind of feel that it’s getting better slowly (very slowly).

I wish I could just be back where I was two months ago. My eating was good, I was maintaining, I didn’t hate my body, I felt skinny, I was running all the time and feeling awesome about my progress.

But honestly, right now I try to be as positive as possible but I feel so angry with myself that I’m at the weight that I am. I’ve gained inches and pounds. I’m constantly comparing myself to other people here on tumblr, I don’t know why, I just can’t stop. I feel so broken sometimes. I look the mirror and I try so hard not to judge everything but I honestly just want to cry. I can’t believe what I’ve done.

• Greek yogurt with all bran buds
• 1 egg on whole wheat toast
• Apple
• Ice water

Feel filled up and good :)

diethard:

It’s important to remember that fasting is not the solution to a binge. Starving leads to binge eating. It’s a cycle, and it’s not about self-control. If you ate too much yesterday, don’t eat nothing today. That won’t work, and it won’t help.

Treat your body with respect. Feed it. Don’t skip meals. That’s the way to deal with a binge.

Just eat normally. Drink lots of water. Exercise moderately.

You can get through this.

It’s going to be okay.

It’s usually always the same two things: bread, cereal and these bar type things we always have. In the past I;ve binged on almost anything: chocolate, french toast, mac and cheese, pita, cookies, rice, bagels, grilled chese etc.

As you can see, it’s mainly carbs. I think I binge on them because I used to comfort myself with food and now it’s kind of an extreme way of comforting myself I guess. And that’s exactly what all of those comfort foods have. I don’t binge because I deprive myself really. I just had toast this morning and I’ll have some cereal at lunch. But I do tend to avoid certain foods at certain times which may contribute to the binging a little.

Before: I need that food so bad. It looks so good. It’s basically calling me.

During: Fuller, fuller, fuller, fuller…

After: Sometimes full beyond belief, other times just bloated and gross. Usually fatter and my tummy sticking out too.